I finally forced myself to get on the scale this week. I knew I was way past where I had been before because none of my clothes were fitting. Sure enough, I am heavier than I have ever been not pregnant. I knew it in my mind but hadn't really seen it yet. So I made myself actually look in the mirror. I really don't like that person staring back at me. She looks tired, her skin is blotchy and broken out, she is lumpy, she has rolls where there aren't supposed to be rolls, and she had back fat. Enough of that because I am trying not to have any negative self talk.

After this self analysis, I set 5 small goals for myself. 1. Move at least 10 minutes extra everyday. 2. Drink 8-8 oz glasses of water. 3. Limit myself to 20 oz of dt soda daily. 4. Get 7 hours of sleep each night. 5. Journal my calories, thoughts, and exercise.

Then I got my marble jar back out. I will put one marble daily for each of the 5 goals. I will put two marbles in for each pound. I will put an extra marble in for each day that I get all 5 goals.

I have to do this. I know I say this everytime but I really have to now. I don't want to be this example for my kids. I want to be the healthy, happy, hopeful example. I want them to see me loving life not just trying to get by.

If you can help me, please do. If you can't, oh well, I need to learn to do this for myself anyway.