Author: Jilligan
•5:27 PM
Over the holiday, I have been reviewing things that worked in the past to help me in any number of ways. This blog was one of the things that I think helped me. I have tried to stick with "it" for years. You know "it" means get skinny, get healthy, get in shape, keep the house clean, stay organized, etc. When I turned 40 in September I had a goal. I watched 40 come and go along with my goals. Then I begin to hurt. The pain was different from what I have felt before. The pain stayed with me all day. It hit me when I got up in the morning no matter if I had worked out the day before or not. It hit me after 8 hours or sleep or 4 hours. It hit me after standing all day or sitting all day. It hit me after walking, resting, treadmills, weights, naps, or life. It felt like the flu in my joints all the time. It was my hips and knees that felt the worst but some days it was my hands or my wrists, others it was my ankles or my shoulders. It was always my hips and my knees. Some days I felt swollen but didn't look swollen. Some days I felt stiff. Some days even the sheets or my clothes hurt me. I tried to eliminate foods. I tried to eliminate activities. I tried ice and I tried heat. I tried pain medicine. Finally I tried the doctor.

He asked me about my sleeping, well it's never been good. He asked me about my depression, well it's not under control. He asked me about my pain, and boy did I tell him. He ran tests and took 5 vials of blood. He told me to stop running and see if we could get my pain under control. I didn't want to tell him I had already tried that. He gave me some medicine to help me sleep. I have tried that medicine before and it does make me sleep, for days. He thinks getting my sleep under control will be the first step no matter what the test results tell us.

Then came the holidays so we wait for the test results. In the meantime, I decided to look back over the past years when I had success with "it". I also decided that I am going to hurt no matter what so I decided to run anyway. I know that no matter what, I need to be in shape to face the test results. The best shape I have been in included running and weight lifting.

I also know that in 21 days you can develop good habits so I am not looking any further than 21 days into my future. I am on day 2. I hurt and I am sore but I am proud. I am excited for the next 21 days. I am excited for 2014. I am excited to finish out the 40th year of my life. I will take on the test results and I will be healthy and fit when I do.

See you on the road!

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