1 pound away from my end of the year goal. I wasn't sure I could make it but now I am feeling confident. People are starting to notice. Man, it's depressing that it takes 45 pounds before someone notices. Maybe it doesn't take that much because I hadn't seen this person that noticed yesterday in about two months. Maybe that's what it takes. It's not the people you see day to day but the ones you don't see for weeks or months on end that really notice.

Anyway, I am feeling good overall as far as weight is concerned. My clothes are falling off. My knees don't hurt as much. My foot doesn't kill me every morning when I get up. I know, I know, I still have a long way to go but I am proud of making it this far.

Here are some useless stats. I need to get rid of 4 more pounds to be considered overweight and not obese. I need to lose 1 point from my BMI to move from obese to overweight. I have lost almost 45 pounds since the first of August. I have lost 30 inches (haven't measured lately) from various points.

I am feeling worthy of my goal. I am dedicated to this journey. I have gone over 65 days with only one slip up. Next week I am going to reintroduce carbs to my diet one at a time to see how I react to them. I am still off of dt soda with only an occasional drink. I don't feel the overwhelming desire to have one so I am trying to keep that in mind.

I have made it past Thanksgiving, birthday luncheons, Christmas work parties, snack day in the lounge, and candy sampling. I have made it through meals with bread at Logan's, chips at Leal's, cobbler at Sharon's, and lonely meals. I have made it through several stressful personal events. I have made it through all of these things without turning to food.

The next round starts Christmas Eve. What will that round bring? I hope for another 45 pounds. I hope for a healthier me. I hope for a positive outlook. I hope for you to join me.
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Stress is rampant in my life right now but I am hanging on. If you don't know it, I hate liars. Just absolutely can't stand to be lied to. I know it is something I have to deal with but it just makes me so mad.

Diet is going good. Family is going good. I took the day off to just let the stress of everything else handle itself. I had a great day with my oldest son. He had a basketball game this morning and then we spent the rest of the day together. Lots of talking and some shopping. He is growing up so fast and needed a few things to make it until Christmas.

I love all my kids. They are so great. I don't know what I would do without them. Glad this is a good week as far as they are concerned.

I have some other friends who haven't been so lucky lately. Please pray for these parents as they deal with the growing pains of their children and grandchildren. I know that God is good and will help us all get through the trials the devil lays before us.

It took 13 to get 5 but it's been worth it. The last two Sundays I would be down and then Monday would come and I would be up. I would fight all week to get back down to Sunday's weigh-in and then hope for a little more. Last week I ended up with a net loss of 8 ounces. This week, the same trend started but it was off by this morning. So I am posting a true 40 pound weight loss. I got my reward for it already. I got my eyeliner tattooed. I love it. I will post a picture as soon as I get one I like. I have taken a few I like but I also visited the dermatologist last week and he burned a few places off that are close to my eyes. They interfere with pictures.

I will let you see soon though.

Well today I am going to get a reward for my weight loss. It is something I have wanted for a year or two. I am going by myself. I want to be alone when I get it. I want to be the first one to see it. It will hurt but I hope it will be worth it. I will post results after, maybe a few days after.

I still have 55 more pounds that I know I can lose. That's the smallest I have been as an adult. I don't have any idea what I weighed in high school. I think I have blocked out the numbers. Maybe I can get smaller then that but I know that will be a good healthy place and I know I can get there because I have been there before. But after today and this post, I am not thinking of it as 55 pounds but as two small goals of 27 pounds. Maybe I need to break it down more then that but we will see.

Any guesses on my reward? No fair if you have prior knowledge of my reward list!

35 pounds since school started this year. 10 more for Christmas goal. Better go drink some more water right now!

Saturday morning has meant alot of different things in my life. Cartoons, sleeping in, track meets, cross country meets, coaching track meets and cross country meets, breakfast in bed, wrestling with the kids, watching track meets and cross country meets, football games, debate tournaments, early trips to catch a bus or drive a bus, and coffee. Coffee seems to be the only constant! I love having enough time in the morning for a cup of coffee with my DH.

Today I am blogging while drinking mine and he is reading the latest workout book I bought to add to our collection. We are up early because the oldest had to be at the bus for debate by 5:30 and the middle has to be up for a football tournament. But in between the two events, we have a little time for ourselves.

Back to the book...when we were both in high school, the athletic staff, namely Richard Albertson got us hooked on a program called Bigger, Faster, Stronger. We both thought it was great then so we looked it up and found out it is still going strong, no pun intended. We ordered the whole program. Now I have a thing for books about running, working out, dieting, fitness, nutrition, etc, so I was pumped (again no pun intended) about it coming in. Only thing is, DH hasn't put it down since it got here. He watched the DVD, he read the magazine, and now he is reading the program book. We plan on getting the whole family going on the program, well, except maybe not Princess. Much to my dismay, she has no desire for sports at all. She does like to run and I am still holding my breath for the rest of her love of the game to follow.

We have a two hour drive ahead of us today. I am stealing that book and reading it for myself. I will annoyingly impart some of my new knowledge on you at some point in time. I am just preparing for one day when my dream comes true and I get to do what I have always wanted. No, not torture you. Okay, well, maybe. But it would be in a "I am doing this for your own good, helpful sort of way."

Diet is going great. Weight and inches are coming off. Goals are being smashed. Keep on keeping on.

Those of you that have been supportive, thanks. Those of you that haven't, whatever.

I have avoided eating to deal with stress now a few times in just the last week. Some times stress just seems to pile on. I am proud of myself for choosing other ways to deal with it. I listened to my rain cd. I read some books. I took a bath. I went to bed early. I cleaned the house. All good things to do instead of eating.

This morning something was on my mind and I just couldn't get back to sleep. Instead of laying there tossing and turning, I got up early and made some coffee. I got ready for work and instead of rushing, I had time to blog and reflect. Now I am completely done with myself so it will be less stressful getting the kids up and ready.

If you don't know, we got three new pigs (FFA projects). I told someone we had 25 extra seconds in the day and needed to fill it somehow! So the kids have to get up earlier now to go check the pigs. I think they are going to take turns so no one has to suffer every day. The pigs are cute. I like two of them but don't like the fattest one. I think I have an aversion to her weight. Anyway, the baby's name is J.R. and the other two don't have names yet. I figure if we have to eat them, we might not want to name them.

Have a great day.