Author: Jilligan
•7:44 PM

There is nothing in the house that I want to eat that is acceptable. There are some things in the house that I want to eat that are not acceptable.  Two of the kids ate earlier but one wanted two of my favorite things and asked me to cook them, crispy chicken and tator tots-fried.  So I did and somehow the smell and sound of the food frying changed my desire to have my grilled chicken and green beans. Luckily my hubby, who was working late, walked in right when I had fried 5 tator tots just right.

I don't know what is crazier. The pull this food has over me or the downward spiral that those 5 little tator tots would cause. A mere 150 calories of potato that would have cost me so much.  So for now I resisted but the tots are still calling me. And I haven't eaten my planned meal yet.

So here are my choices: eat the planned meal and be proud that I did but knowing that I am going to fill that unsatisfied, emptiness. Or I could eat off plan which would cause me to be angry and it would show on the scale. Another choose would be to just go to bed but then I would be way short on calories today and really hungry tomorrow. I could go to the store and get something on plan just different but as "hungry" as I feel, I can't go to the store.

I am not sure what I will do. I have eaten on plan all week. I have been rewarded for my effort. I want to continue on this journey. I want to make the right choices.

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2 comments:

On January 28, 2011 at 8:59 PM , Jilligan said...

Took a bath, drank some coffee, and didn't eat. Then the best thing of all, my daughter said she would give me a massage.

 
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